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My name is Chunk and I'm an alcoholic

Discussion in 'Sunderland' started by Chunksafc, May 5, 2021.

  1. Chunksafc

    Chunksafc Guest

    I have finally hit rock bottom and would like to admit to the world that I am an active alcoholic.

    Embarrassed is an understatement and I'm trying to find my local aa meeting to help me concur my demons
     
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  2. TopClub

    TopClub Well-Known Member

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    Check out smartrecovery.org.uk
    They helped me a lot, sober nearly 8 years.
     
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  3. Porterfield73

    Porterfield73 Well-Known Member

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    good luck marra, first step done, onwards and upwards.
     
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    Brainman Well-Known Member

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    Well you’ve taken the first step.
    Best wishes for the future.
    I hope you get yourself to a better place.
     
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  5. SAFCDRUM

    SAFCDRUM Well-Known Member

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    Good luck mate. Nowt to be embarrassed about on here.
     
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    Snaggey Well-Known Member

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    You've taken the hardest step mate, the first step. You say you have hit rock bottom, so from there the only way is up.

    And there is absolutely **** all to be embarrassed about.
     
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  7. Nig

    Nig Well-Known Member

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    Don't be embarrassed mate.
    I drink too much.
    Mrs says I'm an alcoholic but my councillor says I'm not :D
    But nothing to be embarrassed about.
    Everyone has their faults. It's acknowledging them that sets you apart from self opinionated twáts ;)
     
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  8. Chunksafc

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    I'm embarrassed as I have hiden it, I know I need help to control it.

    I can function as a normal person with work and life whilst still drinking but the shame of hiding it and knowing I need to curb it, hurts the most
     
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    Good luck. Nothing to be embarrassed about. I'm sure you'll find nothing but support on here.
     
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  10. Nig

    Nig Well-Known Member

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    A cousin of mine hit rock bottom after both parents died. His ex wife had a miscarriage. Etc.
    Ended up pìssed regular, empty cans all ower his car.
    Lost his licence and he was a hgv driver.
    Got his life back on track years ago with help and happy niw, doesn't touch a drop.

    I notice i get more depressed now with drink. It's not the answer when it starts to take over.
     
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  11. Nig

    Nig Well-Known Member

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    Most work places give help now mate and have a duty of care.
    Check with your union rep what work policy is.
    Don't lose your job by not telling them if you can get help through telling them if you know what I mean.
    You've reached out tonight and you obviously want help so get it it marra .
     
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  12. Chunksafc

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    I've registered with smart recovery and the aa. Need to find get a headset so the whole house doesn't have to hear me sitting on a meeting.
     
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    Essayyeffcee Well-Known Member

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    As others have said, you've made the first step - you've recognised that something needs to change and have reached out. Nothing at all to be embarrassed about. Put today down as the start of the rest of your life
     
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  14. Chunksafc

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    I've just started a new job, probably not the best idea to mention it while I'm still on probation.

    If I can't do it myself I will speak to work, but for now I feel I have taken a big step
     
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    Big pat on the back Chunk, takes balls to stand up like that!
     
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  16. Nig

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    If you've got a job mate your obviously not totalled but you must have something you need to drink for to escape. ?

    Could you fill that void with a walk along the sea front/river, cup of tea/coffee, hobby etc ?
     
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  17. Chunksafc

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    Most of it is habit / stress relief.

    My last 2 jobs had me working from 6am til gone 10pm most days and the pressure as the bread winner got to me.

    Couple that with the absolutely **** 3 years my family have had with illness and deaths and it all got to much. My wife is and has been an absolute rock but I've lied to her and see the hurt I've caused through hiding it.

    Bit **** all round really
     
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    C19RK73 Red & White army!

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    Speak to your gp mate you may not be as reliant on alchohol as you think
     
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  19. C19RK73

    C19RK73 Red & White army!

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    Get in mount lad!
     
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  20. Chunksafc

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    Oh I am, I realise it now. The thought of not having a drink on a night stresses me out. To the point I have to check how many cans I have in at lunchtime just in case there isn't enough there for an evening.

    Jesus just typing that makes me feel even worse
     
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