Depression...

I haven't thought about it for years. But if it's something you are thinking about a lot, then you should probably call the Samaritans. And don't be embarrassed.

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us?gclid=CPL9sI22pNUCFewy0wodtN0A8g

 

Just going to ring the EAP .

 

I cried about 5-10 minutes ago, First time I've done that for a week.

 

Ever since I met my wife I sleep like a baby ......sleep for an hour , get up and cry for an hour ... sleep for an hour

 

You are a spot-on lad and I hope you shred these demons inside..

I have looked after my severely disabled partner for 8 years now after her body fell apart as well as bringing our daughter up from a day old. I go to dark places now and then, 8 years of sharing your body x3 takes it's toll but just go day by day like I do.

take care bud and I really mean that..

 

Cheers fella, nice words

On the mend now anyway think it might have been an episode... been cutting down on the drink a bit which has made a huge difference

 

Went there myself mate with the drink and ended up whinging at the two people I loved the most, well away from it now..

Good to hear you are on the mend fella, just keep smiling and remember there's a lot of people to talk too when the darkness falls and a few of them will be on here..

Anyway, you are in the prem with your red n' white stripes so spare a thought for us poor ****ers 300 mile north..

 

Alcohol is a drug. And, like any drug, if you abuse it, it will **** you up!

 

Without doubt mate, I maintain that small amounts of just about anything aren't really that bad for you.

Take the piss with a substance legal or not though...

Plus it's a natural depressant anyway.

 

Yep. Booze is great when you're on the lash and having a laugh, but too much quickly turns to feeling rough as **** and a horrible hangover.

That said, nothing is worse that the week long comedown depression from boshing the MDMA.

 

Dunno mate, when I was younger I used to find comedowns easier to deal with than hangovers

Plus billy whizz always gave the worst comedowns

 

Haven't done Whizz for probably 20 years. Try an MDMA comedown when you're knocking 40. Not recommended

 

Yeah **** all that mate! I've still quite a way to 40 and haven't done that **** for a few years as it is

Whizz is just ****ing filthy, used to kill me off for days afterwards after losing about 2 stone.

 

Yeah speed is dirty ****. Often cut with god knows what. My tipple used to be half a gram of whizz and half a tab of LSD. Fun times tbh.
I got into MDMA in a kind of 'second wind' after I'd been off the dirty rugs for a few years. But since I had my daughter 4 years ago, I've knocked it all on the head. Apart from the odd spliff here and there.

Overall though, being as honest and rational as I can about it, and despite the societal lean towards the view that drugs are bad m'kay ... I would have to say that drugs have been a very positive influence in my life. Especially the psychedelics. DMT in particular.

 

Coke is a bastard, had some for the first time in a couple of years last weekend and, while it was a blast at the time, I had a dreadful Sunday and Monday. I wasn't really ok till Wednesday if I'm honest. Doubt I'll bother again.

I never suffered after E but we used to booze on through the Sunday after so never really had a comedown as such.

Find memories of great times! Survived it at least.

 

I did some coke last night and fully recommend taking off the ring pull, the ****er cut my nose.

 

I've cried twice over the last 24 hours, The first one happened when I was in bed last night, it came out of nowhere, and the second one happened this morning before I went to work.

 

Chin up mate. Hope you're feeling better now? All the best.

 

Dude you open yourself up to abuse and ridicule every single day, even if you're saying you deflect it all away, there's no doubt some of it is getting through.

Your videos are divisive at best, for those of us who 'get' you on here they are what they are, but most folk who watch them won't get that, they'll just see an angry Welsh bloke swearing for 10 mins and displaying some of the more stereotypical attributes of a United fan.

People never cry regularly for no reason at all, it's usually something subliminal or hormonal if you can't identify a cause. I assume you're not pregnant.

 

I like his video's. Very much so.