I only mentioned extremism as the NF vote was nearly wiped out in Sunderland and replaced by UKIP -I may be wrong
I'm not saying there's no extremists that vote UKIP, but I know loads of decent people that have voted for them.
Well every single person on the board has been a ****er at some point during my mood swings He's the person on the board I've found most difficult to fathom. He didn't talk in riddle when I met him though. So much goes over my head though on here.
Hands down I'm the biggest tosser on here. I think everyone is alright tbh. I've never had a problem with the people I've met from this place.
Well it's no secret who I wouldn't make time for but yeah, everyone is fine by me. You think you're a bigger Tosser than me? When you go you really go granted, blow me out of the water, but I think I have a wider spread of ****ery,
I think that's the personality disorder kicking in when I blow up. Apart from that I'm a lovely chilled, nice guy... I remember when the Newcastle board pissed me off so I sat awake until 3am just to inbox loads of their posters pictures of people being beheaded so they'd wake up to it. They went ****ing off it. I've got serious issues man so definitely a bigger tosser than you I regretted it big time, like everything else I do. I'll manage to keep a lid on it one day. You can just be a dick more often, but that's nowt really. I've thought a few times that I wish I had your self control. You seem to have something inside you that stops you from completely exploding.
Aye mate, weed It's definitely changed my life where the **** doctors have thrown at me has failed, 6 years ago before I met Georgie i was out of control. It wasn't on the internet though, it was in pubs. It got so bad they knew how I took my tea down the cells, no ****tin. I met Georgie and she was a smokers and I hadn't really touched it since I was in my early 20s. Just used to dable on comedowns and that was my lot. Well it sorted me right out and I got a lot better. I'm still very iritable and fidgety and get lots of bouts of hypermania, but full blown manic episodes are all but gone and my lows nowhere as catastrophic. I haven't self harmed in half a decade. I'm getting there mate. Just need a sustained of CBT so I can face the world properly as I'm quite broken. Fat chance though, Group CBT is a joke and should be outlawed in Psychology but needs must when Austerity measures are preventing folk from the 1 to1 treament they need. Waiting game for me to kick start my life for a proper crack at it and make something of myself before it's too late. But yeah, weed loves me. And I love it. I don't doubt it's saved my life. Small regular doses keeps a barrier in front of the edge. Not a scrap of psychosis either... YET!
This is the first time I've ever admitted it, but I've had two episodes of psychosis. I couldn't talk about it to professionals though because they'd have to inform the police what I've done and I'd go to jail. I'll admit to you in person what I done. It isn't nice. It's dark, it's scary and it's evil. I've been on and off the weed lately and I'm loving the control I've got over it, at the moment. My last joint was 8 days ago and I'm sleeping and eating fine. I've been like this for a few months now and it's great.
**** man. Sounds scary, sorry to hear that. Another reason why weed needs more research to see what effect it does actually on that ****. Buzzin your finding a balance that's working for you though I bet that dog of yours is being a fantastic therapist?
My first episode happened when I was a teenager before I found weed. It's really not to blame. Skye is an absolute diamond, I'm honestly blessed to have such a nice and well behaved dog. In my darkest of days I still get out of the house because I have to so she can have her piss and ****s. She wont do it in the garden so I have to take her along to the field. Sometimes it's only 20mins a time when I'm really bad, but I'm still getting out and that's the main thing.